What if No One Reads This?

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What if No One Reads This?

*Deep Breaths* Here I am attempting to write a blog as an impulse decision. I haven’t done hours of research on this, or anxiously obsessed over whether this is a good decision or not. This is very untrue to my nature. Right about now the self-doubting voice in my head is chiming in reminding me that a) my writing sucks b) no one will probably read this and 3) there’s no point in coming up with a third reason since no one is reading this.

Truth be told, I am writing this regardless of what the self-doubting voice says. I am writing this regardless of who reads it because I need to heal and grow, and despite my subpar writing skills I believe in the therapeutic abilities of baring your soul on pen and paper (eh.. keyboard and desktop?). This might be the first time in my life that I am attempting something without the expectations of succeeding or the fear of failure. I am doing this just to do. Hopefully as time passes my awareness will expand (and my writing will get better? *crosses fingers*) and I will see a positive shift in my life.

The title that I chose for my blog may suggest that I’m some enlightened guru who is here to help you raise mini Buddhas. Let me shock you right now and tell you I’m not! Awakened (in reference to a spiritual awakening) is what I aim to be. Having a kid (my son EJ was born in 2011) made me want to be the best me I could possibly be (too cliché?). But the kicker is that having a toddler often brings out the big, bad, ugly monsters hiding in our inner closets that we stuffed away in our own childhoods.

So here I am, a year and a half into raising my little and I already feel like I’ve scarred him for life! That’s where this blog comes in. This is where I’m committing to actively kicking my butt into gear. I am using this blog as my proverbial mountaintop and yelling for all (or none) to hear: “I want change!”. I am making multiple changes in my current lifestyle and I hope to document them here. I will describe these changes in more detail in later posts and hopefully others going through similar changes will follow along and learn with me. These changes will mainly focus on my physical health, my spiritual self, and my relationship with others (especially EJ). One person that reads this and resonates with me, is one person who I am thankful for. I’m not sure where this journey is taking me but I’m buckled in and ready to go, who’s got shotgun?

Love and Light,
The Awakened Momma

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14 responses »

  1. I’m right there with you, Mama! I think getting through the first year of motherhood is like coming out of a dark, confusing cave. Take a second to let your eyes adjust to the light, then breathe in the fresh air, and away we go!

    • Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! Woohoo! My first comment!!

      You’ve said it perfectly, it truly is a confusing time. My biggest issue is not letting my inner voice tear me down when I feel like I’ve failed. If I don’t see myself positively then what am I really teaching my sonshine?

      Thanks again for your beautiful comment! I look forward to sharing more and learning from all of my followers!

  2. Let me say you are a great momma and I look forward to reading what you have to write. Don’t worry about whether people will read it, you do it for you and it’ll be much more fulfilling that way. ❤

    • Well let me just say that I love and miss you! I truly hope life is great for you and your precious family!! Thank you for stopping by and showing love. Your support means the world!

      • I can’t wait for ur next post. I know u can do it!!! I’m telling my friends about ur blog. I know it would be motivational.

  3. Looking forward to your next entry! Ant you are not a horrible writer. Being a Mom is challenging. But it does get easier. Otherwise people would stop after one kid! Love ya!

    • Jen your comment means a lot to me! Thank you very much for stopping by and reading. Being a mom is challenging but people like you with multiple beautiful well rounded children is what lets me know that it’s possible and worth it to rise to the challenge. Love ya back ❤

  4. Hello,

    I stumbled across your blog and wanted to let you know that change is possible and you will become better, stronger and enlightened if you believe you can do it.
    I feel like I am slowly healing and becoming enlightened too, and atleast 90% of that is what you think, and making sure you feed yourself positivity instead of negativity.
    I look forward to reading more about your journey 🙂

    Imi

    • Thank you Imi for your beautiful comment and for reading my blog. I do believe also that change is possible. Not always easy, but always possible. I started blogging to connect with others that can relate and are going through similar life changes. There is power in connections, so thank you again for contributing to my post with your comment!

  5. YAY! I am here! I am reading and cheering you all the way. We were divinely brought together through our words and now we can support each other on this life-changing journey to live life to the fullest and grasp the beautiful moments available to us. I love your authenticity, your realness, your willingness to look at the painful, deep truths so that positive change can occur. I am inspired by you!

    Rachel
    http://www.handsfreemama.com

    • Oh my goodness lady, You are a pro at making me cry! It is an honor to have you here. Your blog is an inspiration to mine and everything I do since I first read it! I definitely agree that we were divinely brought together and I’m so blessed to have found you.

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