Ever had a situation where you were continuously doing something while ignoring ALL of the signs that are yelling at you “NO!”, “don’t do it”, “turn around”, “put the cookie down!?” Some people may call this stubbornness, I’ll call it “I’ve-been-driving-in-the-wrong-direction-for-so-long-I’m-afraid-to-get-smashed-by-incoming-cars-if-I attempt-a-U-Turn syndrome” (should I abbreviate that? IBDITWDFSLIIATGSBICIIAAUT syndrome, maybe not…). well that basically sums up my relationship with food at the moment.
Over the course of a few months I have been experiencing seemingly unrelated ailments. Toothaches, dry skin patches, anxiety, extreme exhaustion, mental fogginess, difficulty remembering things, sprinkled with bloating here and there. So I did what every person in their right mind does, I called my doctor…Dr.Google. Every single time I called, the good Doc pointed me in one direction: Paleo! It’s usually referred to as the paleo diet or the primal diet but I think the word diet gives off an “I’m trying to lose weight” vibe and believe it or not, I currently wouldn’t mind an extra couple pounds. So with that said, I like to refer to it as the paleo lifestyle because it really goes far beyond food. There’s tons of information about paleo out there, for our purposes here’s a long but useful infographic to briefly describe paleo.
This info graphic is courtesy of MedicalBillingAndCoding.org.
When I first started learning about the paleo lifestyle I became intrigued. I looked up a lot of information and even convinced my husband to kind of go along with me. I successfully ate strictly paleo for 10 days before a sugar monster overcame me and destroyed my efforts in one swift bite of glorious cake. You see, you can take away my pasta, my rice, my cereal, my oatmeal, and I’ll even reluctantly give you my peanut butter, but my sugar?! Why oh why my sugar?! By the way, have you ever noticed how many things have sugar listed as an ingredient on the label? (hint: it’s a lot and it’s not only in sweet stuff).
So in the meanwhile, an epic battle has ensued in my head between the sugar monster (let’s call her Grumbelina) and my common sense, my immune system, and my inner goddess (we’ll call this Team Duh!). Team Duh! has me convinced that Paleo is the way to go. All of the health benefits that other people have experienced plus the mini success I tasted during my ten-day vacay to paleoville surely helps Team Duh!’s argument! On the other hand Grumbelina is a 500 lb bully that sits on people to get her way. She’s got me convinced that depriving myself of sugary deliciousness is blasphemy and surely punishable by something drastic like… Well I guess being crushed by a 500 lb bully is pretty drastic in and of itself. Are you starting to see my dilemma?
I’ve got other
reasons excuses that are holding me back too. My teeth are currently very sensitive and not strong enough to handle eating steaks (so maybe I should hold off until after my dentist appointment?). Or what about waiting until I finally make my husband as excited and committed to paleo as I want to be, doing it on my own seems too hard! Blah, blah, blah! Are you buying any of these excuses yet? I didn’t think so
Alas, I’ve come to the conclusion that paleo is definitely my ultimate goal. I believe in the benefits and I believe it’s optimal for my body. Now I just have to put on my determination cap and make it work. I need to see where I stumbled the first time I tried and make corrections before I try again. I have to set myself up for success. A healthy lifestyle is a priority not only for me but for my little who is looking up to me to form his own lifelong eating habits. How can I tell him junk food is not good for you while I’m stuffing my face with double stuffed Oreos?! That’s just not cool.
I’ve gotta tell you friends (can we be friends :)?) this change business is not easy. I’ve gotta take long hard looks in the mirror and stare at the uncomfortable truth on a daily basis. Sometimes it bums me out, but sharing it here with you picks me right back up (thank you). I’ve already made progress with some of the other changes I’ve mentioned in previous posts so I know this will be no different. I’m really grateful for those who read and comment because you are all contributing to my healing process. The fears and anxieties that go along with big changes are slowly being replaced with your comforting words of empathy and encouragement. I don’t have it all figured out yet, but writing it here is my first step and I’ll keep taking it one step at a time until I reach the top.
Me and my grumbly tummy want to know.. What’s your food weakness? Do you follow a strict diet or is it a free-for-all on food? How important is food and the quality of what you eat to you? Lets talk food people!
Love & Light,
The Awakened Momma